The Huntington Beach Marathon and Half Marathon is this weekend and it is completely sold out. Alex and I are all going down to pick up our packets on Saturday afternoon and the race is Sunday at 7:45 am. Alex and I paid and Bryan and Alison are poaching it in typical Casserly style.
My intention with the half is to feel fatigue in my legs. I ran 5 miles tonight, swimming and running tomorrow and doing a big long ride on Saturday morning. I’m curious how my legs will feel after not taking any rest time. My goal time is 1:55 and I feel confident I can get it but it will be a good measurement of overall fitness level.
Life is pretty good right now. The family is healthy, we aren’t over committed with schedule, work is really good, busy but good and training is solid. I’m getting the frequency I want but not necessarily the total over all weekly time. Oh well, I have a family and that’s my reality.
But I struggle, oh how I struggle when it comes to eating.
Old me:
I would eat whatever I wanted when I wanted and for as long as I wanted. I was fat, happy, and wore big comfy clothes. Then I got tired of being 225 pounds, having my back hurt and my wife got on me about dieing. She can be real fun like that.
New me:
I’m weighing in at 187 pounds but I still feel heavy. My ideal weight would be in the 165 to 170 range. My current eating is much more in line with a healthy lifestyle. I’m off soda (my first love), never eat fast food and don’t ever do desserts. BUT I still cannot control my portions. If it’s on my plate, it will be eaten. This behavior effects me in many ways. Physically because I cannot lose additional weight and emotionally because I feel weird about my body (my hours of reading US magazine is catching up with me). Guys like Dave, Dean, Bryan, Alex, Eric and BMoe are all naturally skinny, ok maybe not BMoe. Then there’s my fat butt!
The me I want:
My body was meant to be 170 pounds and I’m pissed that it’s not but I cannot stop eating. Eating for me is comfort and control. This is really a big deal and I don’t know how to get passed it to move to the next level.
My reality is that if I want to go to the next level with training and racing that I need to drop 17 additional pounds. I think I need external help to get there but I don’t know what that would be…
So my wife is totally using child psychology on me. She has made me a deal that if I hit all 12 of my upcoming 6am swim workouts without skipping one I can get a heart rate monitor watch! Last night at dinner Alison (sister in-law) was over and she said that her and Alex would pitch in to get me an even sweeter one. Now I’m going to hit up my mom and see what she says!
Being treated like a child has huge advantages, I should try it more often…
I still L-0-A-T-H-E swimming but I want a new watch bad!
